I'm so depressed. Sunday is two years that my parents have been gone. I don't know if i'm ready for it. I'm still with my wonderful darling. It will be two years June 24, 2008. I plan on moving in with him when I turn 18. I doubt that my grandma will approve, but i'll be 18, let her stop me.

I miss my mom so much. Lately around the house it has been so stressful. My sister has been crying a lot. It makes me sad. But as far as I can tell she's doing okay, considering.

I wish I could just take all the pain away. From everybody. For everything. My parents, my best friend, everything.

What I miss most, is coming home from school and hearing my mom call me hot chick as I walk off the bus.

I really can't cry anymore. I just feel so numb. Like i feel like crying but it won't come out.